Follow Through Friday: Half Marathon Eve

18 Apr

Sorry for the lack of blogging this week.  My mind has been swimming with a lot of different things going on, and the half marathon I have to complete tomorrow is the biggie.  I am extremely nervous about the race because I know how hard it is going to be.  I hate that I am slow and that I basically walk the whole time.  I know that it does not matter how fast I go, but it is hard to not dwell on that.  I have slacked on my training since the 10 miler, and that is all me just being lazy, in denial, stressed….*insert excuse here*.

I will finish regardless of the time, and I know I will be proud that I did this.  Right now I am just a ball of nerves.  I am very anxious about it all.  I will have two my best gals with me, Jaimelee and Holly.  They will make it fun, and keep me going.  I do worry about being annoyingly slow to two people who could get it over with faster.

Am I annoying you yet because I am annoying myself with all the anxiety and nervousness that I am feeling?

I pride myself on being able to calm the nerves of my friends and make them look at situations in a different light.  When it comes to myself, I am the worst.  I internalize it and then dwell on the worst case scenarios…the opposite of what I tell my friends to do.  I keep thinking about how this is the most physically challenging activity that I have will have completed to date.

So, I am trying to make myself think empowering thoughts.  Other than the 10 miler, the hardest physical challenge that I have completed was when I tested to become a lifeguard in high school…yep I life guarded for 3 summers.

When I decided that I wanted to become a lifeguard, I had a lot of self doubt about passing the physical requirements of the test.  I  knew I could ace the written parts, but the skills test would be killer.  It was the first time I had seen my parents doubt my ability to do something.  They never came right out and said they did not think I could, but they both were cautioning me about how difficult it would be that they did not want me upset if I could not do it.

That was about all I needed to make me not give up.   I now had something to prove and someone to prove it to.  It was 2 days of strenuous activity.  Most notably, I swam 20 (down and back was one) laps without stopping…stopping made you start over and you only got one of those.  I pulled a 180 pound football player from the water while he was acting as dead weight, on top of a variety of other physical tests.

The reason for tooting my own horn down memory lane is that I need to remind myself that I am not always the fastest, the strongest, or most fit, but I have determination to complete a challenge.  It may very well blow balls tomorrow, but I will complete it and be a little better for having done it.

…But don’t expect to see a bumper sticker on my car afterward.

Oh and I purposefully left out child birth.  It sucked and hurt, but I ended up with a c-section and my vag still intact.  I really got off easy compared to you mommas that had to push out those babies.

I want to hear about when you proved yourself or someone else wrong!  Tell me your triumphant stories and toot your horn in the comments below!

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17 Responses to “Follow Through Friday: Half Marathon Eve”

  1. Samantha April 18, 2014 at 10:26 am #

    You are going to kick this half marathon’s ass, no doubt! :) I never did more than 9 miles before any of my halfs, and I’ve lived through 3 of them. You can totally do this…13.1 miles is 13.1 miles no matter how long it takes you to finish. GOOD LUCK TOMORROW!!! :)

    P.S. I thank my lucky stars for the magic of C-sections every time I think about the fact that I had a 10+ pound baby.

  2. Jenny Thornton April 18, 2014 at 10:27 am #

    Best of luck to you tomorrow! I will be thinking about you crossing that finish line. Be proud of yourself and how far you’ve come! You will totally rock it! I can’t wait to hear all about it. I hope someday to be as awesome as you :)

  3. Mary Beth April 18, 2014 at 10:34 am #

    You are going to be amazing! I’m in awe; I don’t know if I could ever think about finishing a half-marathon without being dragged across the finish line.

    I know I’m proud of myself for getting myself out of a job I hated to move back home and go to grad school for something I was passionate about. I had no idea if I would be able to get a job or ever pay my bills again (or ever get to move out of my parents’ basement!) but I knew I couldn’t stay somewhere I was miserable. It has definitely paid off because I now have a job I love and the pride of saying I did it! :)

  4. Nicki April 18, 2014 at 10:45 am #

    You are going to do great!!! Seriously!! I know I say it all the time, but really it doesn’t matter the time it just matter that you finish it. Yes, it feels good to be faster but girl I’ve been running for two years and just now my time is starting to get better, but I know how you feel running with someone that is faster than you. I turn into a big ball and nerves and can’t calm myself. The best thing to do is if you feel this way take a breath and tell them to go ahead of you. You’ll be more calm or having them there will push you more when you want to give up. Either way you’ll be great. I remember when you said you’d never run, and then you did a 5k. I’m so proud of you no matter what you do!!! You my dear rock my socks off and I’ll be rooting for you!!!!

  5. Kristen April 18, 2014 at 10:55 am #

    Good luck tomorrow lady! you will do amazing, be positive! If I see you, I’ll wave 😉

  6. Tiff @ The Fit Train April 18, 2014 at 11:35 am #

    I’m with you on the lifeguard test – one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life!

    Good luck this weekend!

  7. Jessica April 18, 2014 at 11:40 am #

    I just finished my FIRST half Marathon this last weekend. You can do it. You will FINISH this race. I was CRAZY nervous last Friday, so I get it. I was pretty much the same as you. I am SO glad that Holly and Jaimelee will be there with you, they will help with the nerves RIGHT before the race. Take a sleeping pill the night before, I wish I had, because your anxiety brain will cause you to stay up all night. Take it from me. Overall, TRY to enjoy it. And in the end you will be AMAZED at what you accomplished, it really pushes me harder when I think how difficult mine was, but I MADE it. So I know I can pretty much do ANYTHING I put my mind to. Don’t eat a greasy hamburger the night before and HAVE fun! GOOD LUCK!!!

  8. Ashley Ponder Richards April 18, 2014 at 11:56 am #

    I can’t wait to hear how well you do. Good luck!

  9. Just D April 18, 2014 at 12:04 pm #

    Great Luck on the Marathon!! You will be great!!!
    Where’s the link to link up?!?!

  10. Janessa April 18, 2014 at 12:57 pm #

    Good luck on your half tomorrow!! This sounds like how I feel right now minus about a week of anxiety. I run my first half next weekend. My goal is to finish and if it gets unbearable then I may just tabata timer it…run for X amount of time, then walk, then run, then walk until I see that beautiful finish line!

  11. Amber S. April 18, 2014 at 1:06 pm #

    I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow!! Love you to pieces!!

  12. Jasmine April 18, 2014 at 2:46 pm #

    You are going to rock it!!! Just think of that feeling you’ll have when you cross that finish line and say to yourself “I just did a freaking half marathon!!!” So proud of you!!!

  13. Kati April 18, 2014 at 10:03 pm #

    You are going to rock it! Can’t wait to see pictures.

  14. Kelli April 19, 2014 at 7:18 am #

    Good luck today! Happy and proud for you! You will be great!!

  15. Carla April 19, 2014 at 7:38 am #

    You will do awesome tomorrow! Don’t worry about time, pace, walking…any of that! Go out and enjoy the experience. Last September I completed my first half and pretty much walked from mile 9 on (with miles 7 and 8 being mostly walkimg with running sporadically). I run/walk anyway but my training tanked when I had to start getting my classroom prepared for the school year. But it was a great experience and you will be surprised at what you accomplish. A spectator told the group of us at mile 10 (when we were just trying to put one foot in front of the other) “What courage uou have”! Think about that, your courage to get out there and complete 13.1!

  16. Carla April 19, 2014 at 7:41 am #

    And get that bumper sticker!! You earned it!!

    (Oh and baby #2 was a c section. Baby #1 not. Which is why I waited 6 years before baby #2. I’d take a c section any time!) :) 😉

  17. Beth April 21, 2014 at 1:14 pm #

    You can totally do it!! I signed up for my first half this November and I’m scared to death! You are inspiring to me! Good luck!!!

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